This past summer, I really went on a jouney to find my self. I left Alaska, and am proud to say that I now live in my own apartment, and am very homesick. Yet, that I also pulled back from the things I have been doing this past year to rest and to think about what my next step in life is. Every so often I stopped and asked my self “is this who I want to be?” “Do I want people to see me as this type of person?”
Yes, I have made plently of mistakes in the past even some recently that I am not proud of and that is why I want to change. I want to be able to be a role model for my brother and sisters, for my sisters children and for my community. I want to show my mom that I am a hard worker just like her, and that I am responsible. I want to show my friends that I can have fun without drugs. Its something I knew coming into the summer, that I was going to work on making my self better.
Its true that young children are looking up to you, even when you least expect it. Right now in the eyes of our younger generation, is us (teens/ young adults) and yet, we can’t even carry on a conversation that doesn’t involve partying. I am a strong believe that everything starts out young, when you are exposed to it once it lives with you.
Just like when my Uncle commited suicide, I was five. It lives with my family and I till this day, and it still hurts. Its an option and that is the same for everything else. I have such strong passion in changing our surroundings in the villages, because we deserve better. But I also believe that people need, “to want” to change in order to make the change. We keep talking about how bad the high rates of rape, abuse, suicide, and we know they are horrible, but its not going to change unless we make it change, by becoming role models.
It may live with our generation, and our parents generation but we have the tools and resources to change it for the next. Its time that people start seeing the real values of our way of life.
Yes, we are on a long journey, but the reward is limitless.
Ask your self, “Is this the person I want to be?” and make the change.